The night was thick with dreams again. About being in tight places and constricted spaces. Of swollen eyes, closed to mere slits. Of dead ends and detours and public exposure. Of meetings with old friends, who then disappeared. And of searches which ended in disappointment.
When she awoke she was groggy, sore and sad. Lonely. And somewhat fearful that this day would end much like the last. With little accomplished. Decisions unmade. But it was more than that.
She remembered a time when she knew her path and walked it with sure conviction. When she could hear her own voice. Softer, lower, more melodious than the one she had now … who spoke to her with loving compassion and who kept her company as she moved through dangerous places.
The vision that used to bring her peace had almost faded. It was now washed out, grey and emptied of life. She was lonely for herself and for what she once was…. When she would sit, still and at peace, and when she felt one with the universe.
She thought maybe she just needed to be alone so that she could simply hear the sounds of the earth. The dancing leaves, the chatter of birds, the tick of a clock. Without interruption. She wondered if she would ever feel sure about anything again for more than a few fleeting moments.
She realized that her thoughts these days did not lie with the One as they used to. Her concentrated energy, longing and hope was focused on the possibility of change would be brought about by a mortal who was a candidate for high office.
In her obsession, she dared to dream that we … all of us … were poised together, ready and willing to make a great leap forward. That in the next intake of breath, we could step off edge into the unknown. Trusting that we were moving in the right direction.
She dared to hope that with the following breath … we could bring about a worldwide shift in perception and awareness. Then, as one, we would be ready to move together in peace, harmony and shared humanity. In an instant, in a wink of an eye, with one shared sigh, we would create a new earth.
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